I have started a wild sexual affair with my cousin and my world has turned upside down.
At 34 I thought I was happily settled for life with the kind, loving, caring partner I have been with for five years. He is great in every way. I couldn’t wish for a lovelier man.
What I now also have in my life is reckless, abandoned sex with someone I have liked for a long while. He is my mother’s sister’s son. He is 41 and not looking for someone to share his life with.
We met at a welcome-home party for my other cousin, his brother, who has been living abroad. Everyone was there and the cousin I’ve always liked got chatting to me in the kitchen.
People were going in and out but no one really noticed. I could feel the electricity between us and all I could think about was being in bed with him.
At the end of the evening he gave me a slip of paper with his mobile number and disappeared.
I dithered for a week and then rang him. He suggested we meet in a bar for a drink. The bar turned out to be in a hotel and, yes, he had booked a room.
We had a couple of drinks and went upstairs. I let him do whatever he liked. It was amazing.
We meet regularly now and the more time I spend with him the stronger my feelings become.
I am not kidding myself. I know it will only ever be just sex but I can’t tell anyone because of all the upset it would cause and it is driving me insane. I can’t bear my partner to touch me now. All I think about is my cousin. I can’t resist him.