I’m 22 and single. My cousin is 24. My grandparents had a big family party for their wedding anniversary. It was a lovely afternoon and my cousin asked me to go for a drink with him after it was over.
I have always liked him and he has always looked out for me. I thought of him as a sort of big brother but he moved away a couple of years ago. I didn’t see much of him for a while but he came back to our home town for the party.
We had a few drinks in my local bar, then I invited him back to my flat with a few of my other friends. I didn’t have much to drink because I didn’t want to get drunk.
My friends left around 11 o’clock but my cousin and I carried on talking and had a few more drinks.
We got close and he hinted that we should get frisky. I realised that I actually liked him like mad and we ended up having sex. He stayed the night and it felt right, but he left early the next morning without saying anything about seeing me again.
I know I should not have done it and I keep thinking about him. I don’t know whether to text him or not. I don’t know if it was just a one-night-stand to him or not.
Half of me is dreading seeing him again. I could accept it if he’s not interested in me but I don’t want things to be difficult between us.